Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Over

Just...

2 days ago baptized self.

Today saw woman crying for me in AA meeting. Felt nothing. Nothing. Nothing.

I am finally no longer human. Divorced.

I am a god. It's over. Over. Over.

Try me. There's nothing here.


You think I feel self-pity? I feel nothing. Tell your fat little queer friend, your barista, your giggly dipshit.

I'm the nicest person in the world. I'm sober, I don't steal, I don't talk shit, fuck I don't even talk.

Lara.

Saturday, April 18, 2015

A

The portal

The oven you make to put all of those things in
Then you realize the next thing you say is going to change the story of the history of the universe. And it's like your head gets cold and hot at the same time, you are more awake then ever before. You found a key you weren't looking for and you don't know where it should go. Then you realize this key unlocks everything.

If it lasts for longer than a second you'll explode. You can't tell the truth, that's just cruel.